Why I left the corporate world?
I always loved design, creating, great aesthetics is my thing but after a profound spiritual awakening my purpose in life drastically changed and very quickly. I felt my love for design was transforming as I was transforming.
Over time I realised the person that spent 15+ years working for corporations for the goals of a company, call it profit, sales or whatever… was crumbling. I reached a point where I was feeling superficial and the job felt meaningless to me and please don’t take me wrong I have huge respect for people that work for the corporate world, that is just not who I am anymore. As I was becoming more authentic and reconnecting to my true nature I was realising my purpose in life was so different to what I thought it was.
I mean, only a few years ago I was totally fine with my life. Going to work, doing my thing, working in cool projects, I loved it!
If you asked me 5-6 years ago if I was planning to leave the corporate world I would have looked at you with a strange face and said –I’m not leaving, what are you talking about?–.
The Universe works in mysterious ways… Just as we decided to try IVF one more time (We tried for the longest 3 years of my life) with no success we moved to NYC and we decided to stop trying, to stop the treatments and start afresh. at this stage my body was exhausted, I had hormonal imbalances, adrenal fatigue and getting used to the idea that the expectations I had of my own life were rapidly vanishing. It The thing is I spent ten months waiting for my work permit, I had bad days and good days, I used to spend my days wondering in the city, going to museums, reading, learning. I was also doing weekly therapy, learning about energy, the quantum, doing tlong meditations and the hardest part…I was looking within. I was investigating who I was deep under the social conditioning.
Those ten months changed me and made me re-think who I was, made me question everything. My purpose in life was changing quickly.
By the time I got my work permit I was in a different journey in life, I was different. I started to look for corporate roles like I always did but this time it felt different, I was feeling heavy, the design contracts I got were making me feel uneasy, I was working for money with no passion, with no love.
One afternoon I found myself crying while working, that’s when I realised this is not me anymore. –What am I doing? What am I supposed to do now?–
Once more time the Universe had everything orchestrated to perfection, so the right people started crossing my path, signs started to pop up around me and I started learning, healing, transforming one step at a time. As I was changing I started to shed years of cultural conditioning, I was reclaiming my voice and embodying the change I was experiencing. Years of stress and working under pressure to perform to my max led an exhausted mind and body. Slowly I started to rebalance my hormones. I chage my diet, quick alcohol and without noticing I was reconnecting with true nature, with ancient wisdom, with my ancestry.
As I was reconnecting with a past life in the American desert, I was getting ready to go back to Peru and meet the ancient sacred plants.
Everything I experienced was part of a greater plan. My soul had a mission and I needed to remember so my body was the vehicle to higher consciousness, my womb was the key to my healing and the portal that took me back to my indigenous roots, to my ancestry and the real work I had to do.
Today I don’t work, I co-create, collaborate, host, teach, mentor, dance, play, laugh and it’s a never ending adventure I call life.
Photo by Fauna Duo
Now, what can you learn?
It’s Ok to change. Change jobs, change your interests, change careers. It’s doesn’t matter if you spent most of your life doing something and want different. We are meant to explore and evolve. It’s our culture that has indoctrinated us to think that what we chose when we were 20 years old to do for the rest of our lives is going to still be relevant by the time we are 45..It does not make any sense!
It’s never too late to learn, explore and evolve as a human being. That is the beauty of this Earthly experience. you are not old in your 30s , 40s, 50s… age is a number. Your energy, that is something completely different.
When you want to change it will feel uncomfortable because your ego (your personality) doesn’t like change, it loves comfortable and familiar situation, people and places. You may be in a position that you want to change but you find yourself procrastinating, wasting time in mundane things and distracted
When you bypass your mind and start following your heart, thing will flow easily, everything will work out, your passion will be back only if you can leave your mind on the side.
